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"Believe in Yourself"
Original Post Date, February 19, 2010
I know I bitch about my weight, um....all the time. But for the most part, I'm pretty comfortable in my own skin. I feel like I've earned the wisdom of age and apart from a few neuroses, I wouldn't change a thing.
The first thing I do when I get home from work is pull my hair back completely off my face, take off my "work clothes" and wash my makeup off. Tonight, I realized that I had forgotten to pick up a prescription so after dinner, I headed out.
As I was walking through the mega grocery store to the pharmacy, I waved hello to the produce guy, and smiled at strangers I passed along the way. I was feeling pretty proud of myself. The Chrissy of 10 years ago, 5 even, would never have ventured out without full makeup, perfectly coiffed hair and a stylish outfit. Wow, I must have really reached a new level of confidence.
I stopped at the floral shop, where an old lady was looking at the bouquets in the cooler. I walked up next to her and saw that she had her hair pulled back in a bun, nary a stitch of makeup on and was wearing a mis-matched ensemble. She mumbled something to herself, starting laughing and walked away with a bunch of daisies.
I looked back and caught a glimpse of myself in the mirrored display case. I was wearing my hair in a bun, I had nary a stitch of makeup on and a tug on my pant legs revealed two mis-matched socks.
Maybe I'm not so "confident in my skin", after all.
Maybe I just don't give a crap anymore.
You should see how I show up to the grocery store or Rite Aid. The other day I was (briefly) thinking how impressed I was with the ones who show up looking stylishly put-together no matter where they go. But I still don't think it's worth the time and energy.
ReplyDeleteWhy gild the lily, honey? You're knock-em-dead gorgeous. Indigo x
ReplyDeleteMaybe you just look good without all the paint.
ReplyDeleteI think the older we get the less we care what others think of us. I go out all the time in my sweet pants, no make up, hair in a bun and looking like a need a good iron injection, but stuff what they think.
ReplyDeleteI always think - I'll probably never see them in my life again.